... What the hell?! why am I talking to myself... Ummm I shall go and bath first before i continue writing. WATER'S BOILING!!
I'm back! is this like the only post I'm actually "feeling good"? I think it's because she called and talked to me yesterday, that's why. See? I'm so easy to satisfy.. This is how I was like when I'm with Nicolle. I just need to see her once a day, no matter the duration and no matter whether there's a conversation. I din't try to hold her hands or kiss her through out our r/s because I was satisfied easily. She assume that I don't love her anymore, that's why she broke up with me.
After that, I learn that to make a girl happy, you must do sweet things for her. That I must constantly show concern about her and tell her how much I love her.
I want to treat Naf with my best, I hope it isn't too late.
While bathing.. I suddenly had a flashback of Naf. It's about her finding out that there's a little mole on my left cheek. Haha. She was shocked. It's weird how she din't notice it after we've been together for 3 years. I think my mole is a ninja.. I understand it's not easy to spot. I know she got a mole in the middle of her chest. I think i rmb all the features on her :)
Moving on.. I checked my mail today and found these:
TANCHENHUI! :D
Hi guy :D I created this email to tell you of ALLLLLL th things tht I kept inside my heart. I nvr thought I'd write a 'goodbye' letter to you. Haha. So, here goes nth...
I know I'm not a good gf to you and all. I guess, this is where our rship ends. And, I think I can finally move on now. Thnks fr th tips, hahaa. Talking to you helps me to get over you better . Although many ppl said tht ignoring you is better. I really think it's the otherwise. So, yeah. &uhm, I hope tht we'll be friends, no matter what happens :) Pls rmbr, you owe me 3 dates! One for th Sentosa thing, second is fr the Spore thing and another fr Prom Night :) Rmbr hor TANAHPEK! Hahaha. Thnks fr th gd times, really really appreciate it. Even though we had our good times and bad times, I can say tht you nvr fail to make me love you all th same. If I could turn back time, I would try to reverse plenty of things. But I can't. &an apology won't cover up for all th mean things I did/said to you. But I guess tht's just life huh? You make mistakes, regret and then move on. And tht's exactly wht i'm gonna do :)
And apart from my apologies, I have a BIG thnk you too. Thnks for trying hard to change me. You may think tht thr's no difference in my attitude. But actually, thr is. I can feel it fr myself. I'm no longer THAAAT arrogant and stubborn as before. DON'T SAY 'YA RIGHT'. Cos, even if it's not significant. I know tht thr's a change in me. &I wanna thnk you fr tht :) Besides that, you taught me life, how to live it, how to care fr others and not only think abt myself. You taught me trust, loyalty, and...how to sex. Hahahaahaha. And most importantly, you taught me how to love :) I really really wanna thnk you fr tht. Before getting into a rship with you, all my exes don't even last for 1mth 1 day! But, you make it such tht I can commit to a guy longer. 1 year 1 mth. Wow. Thnk you :D
I nvr thought this day would come. &It's hard to say goodbye, heh. But, I figured you alr did, and I MUST do th same too. Goodbye tch/guy/dear/darl/sweetheart/hubby/mr straw/tanahpek :) I hope you live your life to the fullest and take great care of yourself. Find a good gf/fiancee/wife, treat her good! Don't everytime bully her! Like wht you always do to me! Humpff. Lol. Don't everytime heck care her then go to your friends. Hahaha.
Say 'bye' to your mum for me. She's a good mother and a good person. I'll definitely miss her. Haha. HUSKY! Hahahaa. Don't bully her! And don't you fuck her hor. Hahaha. Treat her good. Or else, I report to SPCA. Hahaha. Your other family members...hmmm, dont really know wht to say abt them. I just hope Siew Hui, Jia Hui and Ming Hui have a never ending love with their loved ones: Wen Hao, Sean and...dunno her name..LOL. Help me say: FUCK YOU! to Fishball the rabbit. I don't like her/him. AND NVR WILL. WTHJUMPHEREJUMPTHR. Lol. And as for you! Don't be too easy going. Ltr ppl step on your head how? Step back ah? LOL.
Study hard for your O's! I know I will :D You must get good grades and then TRY beat me in English. HAHAHAHA 'B4' GUY. I GET 'A1' LEIIIII. LOL. Good luck, all the best and ... I love you. I will always do :) Even when I've gotten over you, I know you'll always have a place in my heart. TANCHENHUI: the FIRST guy who stole my heart, my first naive kiss and my virginity. Hahah. Ok ok, let me just give you one last qingqing &a long long baobao.
*QINGQING*
*BAOBAO*
Okay then, I won't pester you anymore :) Lol.
Au Revoir! Wish you all the best in your future guy :D
XOXO, naf (:
Now it's my turn to say good bye isn't it? It's funny how things can turn out to be.
I also found a small conversation we had on msn.
I can't post it because there's drawings and stuff.
Why I mention about this conversation is because:
When I read it, it reminds me of how close we used to be. We're love birds.
It also reminded me of us always meeting at the bus stop near our school to head to school together. You're always rushing to me because we're gonna be late, while I watched you as your wet and untied hair wavered in the morning breeze. It's a precious moment although sometimes we end up being late. Remember that day, while walking on the long path beside the school you dared me to ask the Fuhua girl who was walking in front of us for her number? It was funny because when i went up to her and try to get her number, her face was damn shock and the first thing that came out of her mouth is "No", haha. While you were laughing at the back.
The same old path of me walking to school with you in the morning and me sending you home after school have many memories of us. They mean so much to me..
There's so much memories of us in my mind, there's too much to be written out.
They say secondary school's life is the best and most memorable, I bet it is because with you.. you make my secondary school's life wonderful... I love you.
Love,
TCH
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