7th April 2011

I was looking forward to today because I get to meet Naf.. She look damn tired today, I think it's because she cried after reading this book call "The Kite Runner". She's still gorgeous anyways. Throughout the day, I wasn't sure how I should treat her, whether to treat her like my darling or to treat her as a friend. There's just a constant reminder of restrictions in my mind however I just treat her how i would naturally, and i guess its the loving TCH after all. That greedy little girl, read too much of my diary until she lose her emotions. Try to screen shot somemore, tricky little girl isn't she? Cute :) When she cried I had mix emotions, I felt pain in my heart seeing her cry while the other side of me felt glad because she cried for me.. at least that shows that she care for me.. Right?


(When I search for your pictures, I still click the folder labeled as "Family")
Occasionally I would dream of having a family with you. Like waking up every morning, seeing you lie next to me, preparing breakfast for me.. and all the other things that hubby and wife get to do together. If you're my wife, I wont let you work because I don't want you to have not enough sleep and stress out. I'll work very hard to make sure we have a comfortable life. I'm really curious how our baby will look like, you know? Haha. It'll be a brand new chapter of life with you.



It's wonderful to think of these things but when you realize that reality isn't looking so good, all the thinking will be pointless.



6th of April 2011

I went out with 2E8 for steamboat at Bugis, 20 bucks sia! I've already spent 100 plus this month and now it's like only what date? 6th? Haha. Anyway the steamboat was a total waste of money. The food there sucks and one major fail is.. you know what? There's a caterpillar in our soup from the veg we took. YUCK!! Total turn off. Junfeng dint tell us about the caterpillar until we finished my food cus he din't wanna spoil our appetite. He asked for the boss, the boss offer us 1 person off and I think because he found out Junfeng took a picture of the caterpillar he offer another person off. From the 40 bucks we saved, we went to get Starbucks drinks for everyone :) Awesome or what. Haaha.. but ewwwww... Fucking caterpillar.



Now I can't sleep because of the caffiene.

I hope I can find someone new and fall in love with her so I can get over Naf. When I say get over Naf, I don't feel happy at all. I don't wanna get over her.



5th of April 2011


I saw this pair of Supra shoes at Queensway Mall. So nice but the price also very nice, 300bucks?! Crazy. No way will I buy it and step on my 300 Bucks. Haha. How I wish it'll just appear in front of me magically. I bought this PS3 game call Vanquish. It was awesome. Bought it for 35bucks, 2nd hand. There's also the same game 49bucks, 2nd hand. It's exactly the same. Why the price difference!? I think they tag the pricing wrongly. Hahaha. I gained. If I trade my game in, I'll get 20bucks for it. So I actually end up buying the game for 15bucks. Ain't I a money saver?



One of the days, can't remember which.

I want to be able to talk to you so badly but there's nth to say because i don't know you anymore.

While talking on the phone with you today, we had a little argument. That's when I got knocked into senses. I had the feeling of giving up.

I'm doing things for you which you shouldn't deserve to have. Why am i so desperate? I must have my own pride and not beg to be loved again.

You're taking me for granted.