Our Love Diary

I'm being stupid

Is it really over? I wonder what it'll feel like when i think about your beautiful face when im grey and old.

How i wish..

Remember the video you did for our 3 years anniversary? It suddenly came across my mind so i watched it again. I was smiling while crying when watching it. Smiling cus you're so damn cute :B wanna pinch yooUU!! gomos you till you die but somehow tears just automatically well up in my eyes, had flash back of how we were when we were in secondary school. The thought of losing you is just unbearable. I've been trying to heck care you and thought i was okay without you, by what happened, it actually tells me that deep deep inside i really care for you. I wish i can relive the past, just like how things used to be...

I have alot of problems some times, but they are nothing comparing to the problems between you and i. Course i think of it everyday..

I finished my Programming, WorkShop and Boating Theory already. Yes! but i think ill do badly for workshop and boating theory. Its weird how snake's attitude totally changed during the last lesson. He became so nice. Why cant he be like that since the beginning? It'll be better this way right? Anyway, i want to learn how to break dance.

It's the past

Wanna know why its grey? cus it's the past,
Guess I'll be spending Valentines alone..

Im so confused about what you're thinking , really. What the fuck man, i dont even know what to blog about on this bloody blog. I dont know to hate you or to continue loving you, but since i wanna get over you. I think i should hate you. Sometimes you're such a bitch. I want things to be like before but whatever lah. Fed up

Finally workshop practical's over (:

Date: 31/1/2011 & 1/2/2011

Monday is the same old shit again, fucking bloody lecturer. It was raining heavily in the morning, i was late for workshop for 10-15mins. There are also a lot who were late due to the rain. I have this friend who came late for 30mins, lecturer.. lets just call him snake, snake asked him why he was late, and my friend said that he was riding to school and got caught in the rain and snake was like "ohh, okay". I wanted to take attendance so i asked snake whether he can take my attendance, he asked me why i was late, i said i was caught in the rain, and he scolded me for always being late when in actual fact im only late for 1 time. What the fuck is wrong with his brain? did the fire damaged his brain? and for the rest of the lesson, he scolds and scolds, So much i felt like putting my fist through his face. Anyway enough of this dumb fuck.

Moving on, I finally spoke to Beverly. I went to foodcourt 5 to chill out with Rahul and other friends who were there as well. Then Bev came walking into FC5, i was like "omg omg omg", cus the awkwardness i coming over me. Soon enough Bev and her close friend Joei approached my table and said Hi, so i was like... ok... "Hi!" and smile, although i sense that my smile was awkward. I just couldnt smile properly. They dragged Rahul from my table. After awhile Joei came to my table and asked me to go meet Beverly outside. So i went out, saw her sitting on the bench, and then sat beside her. So we started talking, it was super duper uber awkward, i swear. She cried and cried but we got things off our chests and came clear with one another. I wont wanna want to date her, cus we've lost touch for too long and my friend kinda like her, so it'll be super bastard if he sees me get together with her. I think she can find her happiness soon anyways, cus she has quite a number of suitors. After talking all my friends in FC5 was like, how did it go!? hahas. Bunch of K P Os!

I can see that girls are trying to get close to me, and i cant possibly feel for every girl who wants me. So what happens to those who got rejected? we cant even be friends. Why cant i just have NORMAL girl friends. Like just friends, like me and my guy friends, nothing more.

Yesterday was pretty awesome, i went to fc5 again to meet max boonmeng with weiping cus we wanted to have dinner together. I saw Bev again, but this time round it wasnt awkward, we waved and said hi. Im glad, we're alright now. Boonmeng wanted me to show him our school gym so i brought him there, he started working out there but got chased out cus he wasnt wearing shoes, he was wearing sandals haha. We went back to fc5 and boonmeng was like, ei you wanna gym? so i was like yeah sure. So he changed into proper attire and gym together. He claim that it was super effective training with me. Meanwhile when we were gyming, max and weiping was with their friends. While we were gyming the dragonboat girls flooded the gym -.- i dont like them cus they very tintae. Rahul and weiping came in to visit us also. Donno for what sia HAHA. So after gyming we went to meet others at lakeside and during the journey there we tried to convince boonmeng to come along, he complain that the place we're eating is too far away from his place, i dont like people who back outs. I hope during 4E7 those who are coming will not back out, cus ill be fucking pissed. We persauded him anyway, so he came. Went to taman jurong food court, and ... WHAT THE FUCK!? everything is closed. Except for a few stalls. We explored a little and decided to eat curry fishhead, cereal prawn, mutton soup, sweet and sour pork and vege. There were 5 of us so each of us spend around 10dollars, i paid for the mutton soup though so i spent 16dollars. I realised i spent $30 on that day.. Haha T.T Overall the food was delicious, we were having an awesome time together! Hope we can have more dinner like that. Love 4E7 :D

I got C for my diploma plus!! NOOOoooo! but there was a mistake, lecturer dint get me 10marks for the sketches cus she thought i dint submit, i resubmitted the sketches and got 10marks so im a B now! HAHAHA

Oh ya and the last thing, I GIVE UP. I shouldnt bother anymore, its time for me to move on. Im only hurting myself.